Is Labor Day just an “official” sign that summer is over, especially summer vacation for the kids? Many schools begin right after Labor Day. For others, Labor Day represents the last long weekend to play. Do you remember when Labor Day was the fashion moment when you were no longer allowed to wear white or you were judged as a fashion nightmare? (By the way, the rule of not wearing white after Labor Day no longer exists.)
Thank God, I love white!!

Unlike a lot of holidays, Labor Day is not based on any cultural custom, any one person (alive or dead), any religion, race, or brought over to America by immigrants from another country. Labor Day is a holiday set aside to honor all workers.

The History of Labor Day

Labor Day was born in the 1890’s. In 1893, the Pullman Company, a railroad sleeping car manufacturer, laid off hundreds of its workers as a result of the decline in orders for railroad sleeping cars caused by a nationwide depression.

Workers who remained, received pay cuts while their house rents to the company remained consistent; therefore, take-home paychecks were slashed. Workers then walked off the job and demanded higher pay and lower rents. The American Railway Union (ARU), led by Eugene V. Debs, joined the cause of the striking workers and this led to a nationwide boycott, by railroad workers, of trains carrying Pullman cars.

Rioting, looting, and burning of railroad cars soon followed and mobs of non-union workers joined in.

The strike immediately drew national attention. President Grover Cleveland declared the strike a federal crime and sent 12,000 troops to break it up. Violence broke out and two men were killed when U.S. deputy marshals opened fire on protesters in Kensington, near Chicago.

The strike failed and was declared over on August 3, 1894. Debs was imprisoned, the ARU was disbanded, and all Pullman employees from then on had to sign a pledge that they would never again unionize.

Unions didn’t really start until The Great Depression of 1929!

Imagine how hard people had to fight for just the “right” to work and earn a living. To provide was an honor, and any work was to be done at your best capability. This was called a work ethic.

And now, the tides have turned to ~ what can I get from someone else and what can others do for me, not what can I do or be for me and yes, others too.

It went from honor and respect to entitlement and the wanting of more, more, and more and giving less, less and less.

To be of service is now humiliating, not honorable. Service is a gift, not a lower class position where people treat you like crap!

In today’s world the need to balance; family, self development, hobbies, fitness and a job is a lot, don’t you think? So let’s figure out how to do it.

1. Labor is the effort of performing a task and for the workers engaged in the activity. Labor in certain times, meant work done by slaves.

2. In the feudal period, agricultural labor was in the main performed by the serf.

3. In medieval towns, however, the skilled artisans of the craft guilds became influential citizens.

4. Many manual labor jobs were eliminated with the introduction of machinery (mid-18th century), thus creating a labor surplus.

5. With increased competition for jobs and consequent decreasing wages, a form of labor contract came into use in Great Britain and its colonies, called indenture, by which people could hire themselves out for a certain number of years either for a lump sum of money or to pay off a debt. (This practice disappeared by the end of the 19th century.)

6. The term labor today is most frequently used to signify organized labor and unions.

So Labor/Work/Job now comes with perceptions which we can feel blessed or depressed depending on how we individually choose to perceive it.

Could a change in perception cure a lot of the working person’s depression?

A Change of Perception Creates A Miracle!

How do you feel about the “right” to work now?

Marni Spencer-Devlin & The Mona Miller Show

Part I and Part II
Air Dates: 8/17/08 and 8/24/08

Pimped,Imprisoned & Raped / The Life of A true Artist

What happens to a vivacious, talented, precocious little girl who is truly an artist inside?

Who is right brain dominant
Who believes she is not smart, school wise; Because school is normally set up for the left brain
Who is put down by a teacher in front of everyone is then molested by her brother since she was a baby~ and this brother was still the one she adored and felt like a girlfriend too........... Because it's what she knew.
Who's parent's were unhappy, father sick, mother exhausted

Pimped,Imprisoned, Raped and Coming To America

Raised in Germany, after the war. Hating school, she began to live through art. Always drawing for expression, painting the walls and sculpting the window sill (oops)
Then her father “accidentally” pimped her out at 12 years old (by telling her to go out with a grown man who actually raped her). Mind you, the father did not know a rape was going to happen.
Then she met a guy named "Blue" at 13 years of age. This was the beginning of acid.
And here comes Fred, a real “Glamour pimp”. This little girl is now so confused that she actually felt special for being "his girl" at age 14.
(Most Molestee's have a tendency of getting raped later)
There are more rapes and pimps to come and a marriage to what kind of man I wonder?
Learning English, coming to America, abusive marriage, heroin, escaping the marriage, becoming a heroin dealer, being busted, living in solitary confinement, freaking out and then the silence came followed by the release.

She sold out her friend to the Fed’s to save herself who was one of her angels, and then there was House arrest and hard labor/factory.
She became part of the Palestinian Connection/ Drug Dealing!
There was the Glamour Job?????????
Life behind the Wall (A brothel from the Inside)!

The Hollywood Life and The Big Bust!

Having an apartment then losing it all again!
An affair with the FBI begins. She is now living a double life.
Then the Big American Bust! A Star is born in Jail.
Drawing portraits for inmates in exchange for cigarettes, ratted out by inmates, drawing portraits for officers.
She is released with no one or nowhere to go with the exception of a Mexican home of convicts.
Where there is an attempted rape. She escapes and back to hooking and drinking. Leading to Rehab and AA!
Then she becomes Clean and Sober and back to using again!
The Really Big Bust – Embezzlement!! More Prison and making murals, riots, death threats and “Paying the Rent”. Merni becomes “Picasso Behind Bars”.
The Manson Connection. Drugs in prison, is she a lesbian?
Finally a great Birthday! She is 30 years old.
Now a part of a Prison Outreach program/ INS Hold/Starting Anew/More ups and downs/Married again! An entrepreneur/receiving an inheritance/buying a first home/working 24/7. She struggles with Gay Feelings/Marriage Ends/ The Good Life but Drinking again!

Who is Marni Now?!!

Now to the present! She is married to a female golf pro and is Diagnosed with Hepatitis C!

Drawing again
Virus free
Heart Attack
Virus returns
Leaves the company she helped build
An Artist She Is!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sober, holistic and still traveling.

I am honored with a priceless gift ~ portrait of myself, drawn from her insight taken from the cover of my music album.


She "sees" from the inside out because of what she has "seen".
What an amazing story and journey to the elegance I have witnessed today.

Please welcome my special and talented guest Marni Spencer-Devlin!!

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Marni's Websites
www.legacyportraitsbymarni.com

Marni on Myspace!
Other Works By Marni:

A New Way to Be In Hollywood. Is it Possible?

These young talents are stepping into self awareness. They are beginning to really study and understand the pain and pitfalls of the low and high ego. The insecurities and arrogance's of the entertainment industry, as well as the ups and downs of growing up. Did how they grow up affect how they handle fame, judgments and rejections? Yes, but how they perceived what was and is happening in life is even more important.

As we, on "The Mona Miller Show", have said before, just because the masses have made something a "norm" doesn't mean that is the way it should or has to be.

Responsibility means being self aware and being willing to talk about it and - do they dare try to practice it while having the world tell them how talented and beautiful they are one minute and how they better pull up the next. This show will be entertaining but insightful.
Please join us This Sunday, August, 10th at 7pm west coast time and 10 pm east coast time to see what could happen if we, as a society, practiced what we are learning in self awareness/2008!

***************** Adam Gregory*****************

Adam on IMDb.com

Adam has been in LA from Cincinnati, Ohio for just a year and a half has landed a contract as a model with Ford, supporting roles on Disney's Wizards of Waverly Place, Nickelodeon's Just Jordon and a reoccurring role in the new 90210 television series. Next year, his feature films will be released; Seventeen Again, Hard Breakers and Hannah Montana.
And yes I almost forgot the most important credit, he is my cousin.

***************** Floriana Lima*****************

Floriana on IMDb.com

Floriana is a beautiful young actress who has already had a Reoccurring, co-star role on the show: Privileged by Alloy Entertainment and a guest star of How I Met Your Mother on FOX and a Guest Star part Terminator: Sarah Connor Chronicles/Fox

***************** Fatimah Adams*****************

Fatimah on IMDb

And let's not forget miss personality, Fatimah Adams. She was a co-star in CSI/NY,Guest star in Drake& Josh, Walk Away, Kid's Break; Show Host. Need I say more!

To contact Adam or Floriana:
Lori Noelker Knight
Knight Light Entertainment
10061 Riverside Drive
Suite 710
Toluca Lake, Ca 91602
818.861.7076

To contact Fatimah:
H.David Moss & Associates
Agent: David Moss
Phone: (323) 465-1234

With Special Guest:

Lieutenant Devin Chase

Detective Glenn Wash has worked for the Los Angeles Sheriff's Department for over 14 years. Detective Walsh's assignments include; 4 1/2 years in custody, 5 years working Patrol at Century Station, and 4 1/2 years as a Narcotics Detective. He is also a member of the California Narcotics Officers Associations and on the State Executive Board. Detective Walsh has over 300 hours of formal narcotic training and is a Drug Recognition Expert Instructor.

Also Joining the Show:
Lieutenant Devin Chase has been a police officer since 1982, and has worked a variety of assignments, including positions as a narcotics investigator and sergeant of a narcotics team. Lieutenant Chase is currently the commander of the Vice and Narcotics Division for the Torrance Police Department. Prior to joining the Torrance Police Department in 1985, Lieutenant Chase served as a Patrol and Field Training Officer for the City of Vernon Police Department.

Lieutenant Chase has been teaching a variety of narcotic related topics since 1991 for law enforcement, educators and citizen groups. Lieutenant Chase has lectured extensively throughout the United States on various narcotics related topics for Local, State and Federal Law Enforcement Agencies. Lieutenant Chase is the past chairman of the Los Angeles Region of the California Narcotic Officers Association and a regular instructor for the California Narcotic Officers Association. From 1995 through 2005 Lieutenant Chase was an International Association of Chiefs of Police (IACP) Certified Drug Recognition Expert Instructor.

Lieutenant Chase was the 2005 California Narcotic Officers Association Al Stewart Narcotic Officer of the Year for the State of California.

Los Angeles Sheriff's Department
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I invited Detective Walsh & Lieutenant Devin Chase on to answer questions that you, the listeners, have asked me many times and speak on the myths that marijuana isn't a real drug and wine isn't really alcohol.

We are going to get clear on this subject so we can help ourselves and then our kids.
Detective Walsh also served the in the United States Marine Corps and served in operation Desert Shield/Desert Storm in 1990/1991 and Iraqi Freedom in 2003.
Married and a father of two, this matter becomes very personal.………….

Young people are exposed earlier than ever to drugs.
Substance abusers incur 300% higher medical costs than non drug users.
Drug users are 1/3 less productive on the job and are much more likely to miss work.

Young users suffer;

More illnesses
Miss more school
And are more prone to criminal acts than non-users

This is a World Issue!! 200 Million People internationally consume illegal drugs
400 Billion dollars change hands yearly on illicit drugs and more than 50% of US police and other law enforcement said Methamphetamine is their biggest drug problem.

Drugs have been around as early as the 15th century. During the 1960's, music and the media invaded our world and helped make drug use popular. The college student would stay up dancing and partying for 3 consecutive days using amphetamines. The middle school or high school kid became addicted to alcohol, marijuana or even Ritalin. How many moms can't function without pills for depression? Let's not forget the professional business person that is addicted to alcohol and cocaine.
Alcohol related car accidents are the 2nd leading cause of teenage death in the United States.

The most commonly used illicit drug is Marijuana. I have heard many kids and parents say "drugs and alcohol are just a way of life and expect their children to do it”!
Why is this considered normal? Yes, I know when the "masses" of anything are doing something, that creates the judgment of "normal", but does that mean that "normal" is what should be?

Many children have told me their goal was to get "high" and have a "good time". Is that what life is about now?
What does that do to the other feelings that are a part of life? Life is all encompassing. If we block our other sensitivities will will that do to our lives and the lives of others? Sometimes being upset is appropriate and tells us we need to check-in and do something. Like an upset for flood victims, child abuse etc.
Drugs and alcohol are how we and our children have begun to process problems, feelings and issues.

If you want to open a great business, Rehab's are one of the top successful businesses to have. Why? It is really that hard to stop, yet we keep getting our friends and even our children to join us.

I have heard people and parents tell friends and their own children, “Come on, have a drink, it's a celebration! Is there something wrong with you if you don't?” To be sober is not about inner strength anymore, but it is considered strange and weird to be sober and something is socially "off" with you, right?

Do you want drugs or life more?

People often do drugs to:

Feel comfortable in public or with the opposite sex
To just see “what it's like”
To make others feel more comfortable, to please others
To act cool or like a "grown up"
To run away from something

I call the Addict "Super A!” The Super A's goal is to act like a savior and it wants to give you good feelings when you feel bad or uncomfortable. The addict is not who you are, but just a part of you that is leading your life. Drugs and alcohol disconnect you from yourself and your friends and family.
How are the people around you acting and feeling as you do drugs or drink alcohol?

Drugs and alcohol affect you emotionally . Cocaine, for example, can bring you up to a false happiness but when it wears off you crash to a very low state. Drugs will completely mess with your picture brain and creativity. You can feel slow and unclear and some drugs can cause hallucinations and paranoia. Drugs break down your immune system as well, often depleting your system of oxygen which moves your body to an acidic state causing your general health to break down.

Detoxing your body is a must to get off of drugs. Some drugs contain toxins that sit in your fatty tissue for years and continue to affect you long after you've stopped using. A colon and organ cleanse is strongly recommended. Detoxing can help stop the cravings.
•••See the Dr. Group show on my web site••

Alcohol depresses your central nervous system. Yes, it lowers your inhibitions, but you lose common sense discernment. Plan on a loss of coordination slow reflexes, blurry eyesight, little or no memory,or blackouts.

Over time you will be able to drink more, but physically it can affect your liver and create heart disease.


Marijuana comes in all kinds of forms now a days. Lollipops, brownies, cookies, tongue mints, teas etc. Marijuana/Weed can cause anger/violent bursts. According to a National Household Survey on Drug Abuse, kids who frequently use marijuana are five times more likely to steal than those who do not use the drug. The potency of marijuana is stronger today than ever before. The growing techniques and certain seeds have created a higher THC level, making the marijuana more potent.
It creates:
• poor memory
• weakened ability to problem solve
• no sense of time
• loss of coordination
• sleepiness
• increases appetite
• too relaxed
Long term:
• Can cause psychotic behaviors and thinking.
• Damage the lungs and heart
• Aggravates bronchitis, coughing and wheezing
Using marijuana as a medical aid is like any other drug. It requires specific prescribed doses, like 1-2 hits to stop nausea in chemotherapy. If your body is not in need of a drug then a drug begins to break your body down because it was fine to start with.
So using the philosophy “Truth above feelings” here is extremely important. The truth is do not take or do what you do not need.

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Roger F. Bass, Directo
Los Angeles High Intensity Drug Trafficking Area
OFFICE OF NATIONAL DRUG CONTROL POLICY

Washington, DC 20503, For Immediate Release: Contact: ONDCP Public Affairs: 202-395-6618
Thursday June 12, 2008
New Report Finds Highest-Ever Levels of THC in U.S. Marijuana
Increased Potency of Smoked Marijuana May Be Responsible for Serious Mental Health Consequences for Teens
(Washington, D.C.) – Today, the Office of National Drug Control Policy (ONDCP) and the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA) released the latest analysis from the University of Mississippi’s Potency Monitoring Project, which revealed that levels of THC – the psychoactive ingredient in marijuana – have reached the highest-ever amounts since scientific analysis of the drug began in the late 1970s. According to the latest data on marijuana samples analyzed to date, the average amount of THC in seized samples has reached a new high of 9.6 percent. This compares to an average of just under 4 percent reported in 1983 and represents more than a doubling in the potency of the drug since that time.
To read the whole report visit. www.WhiteHouseDrugPolicy.gov

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This is from the Sydney Morning Herald, Austrailia

http://www.smh.com.au/news/health/dope- ... 41179.html

Dope smokers not so mellow any more

Kate Benson Medical Reporter
July 30, 2008

MORE than a third of people who present at Sydney emergency departments after smoking cannabis are violent and half have mental health problems such as severe anxiety and suicidal thoughts, shattering the image that dope smokers are relaxed and sleepy, researchers have found.

The data, collected by the National Cannabis Prevention and Information Centre, at the University of NSW, indicates that cannabis users can be as aggressive as crystal methamphetamine users, with almost one in four men and one in three women being violent toward hospital staff or injuring themselves after acting aggressively. Almost 12 per cent were considered a suicide risk.

"It flies in the face of what people typically think of cannabis - that it is a natural herb that makes people mellow," the centre's director, Professor Jan Copeland, said yesterday.

"The reality is that it can make people highly agitated and trigger acute episodes of anxiety."

She said the study, which covered two hospitals from 2004 to 2006, revealed that more than 9 per cent of cannabis users had depression or bipolar disorder, 5 per cent had schizophrenia and 4 per cent had paranoia and a history of self-harm.

"It's the first time we have ever gathered this data and it is highly surprising. It's apparent that we need a higher level of early intervention to pick up these problems before they get to the emergency department," Professor Copeland said.

The head of emergency at St Vincent's hospital, Gordian Fulde, said yesterday most people still believed marijuana was a soft drug, but "the old image of feeling sleepy and having the munchies after you've had a smoke is entirely inappropriate for modern-day marijuana".

"The grass we smoked in the '60s could have been lawn clippings compared to this completely different breed of nasty cat," he said.

"With hydroponic cannabis, the levels of THC [the active ingredient tetrahydrocannabinol] can be tenfold what they are in normal cannabis so we are seeing some very, very serious fallout."

Cannabis use was soaring among young professionals in the city and inner west, Dr Fulde said, but users rarely needed sedation.
Elizabeth Edwards
Drug-Free Projects Coalition, Inc.
Programs and strategies to prevent and reduce drug use
through student drug testing programs, informed public policy
and drug-free workplace programs
http://www.studentdrugtesting.org
Direct line: 520-790-9153

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Inhalants are sniffed and huffed. This includes household products such as glue, nail polish remover, paint, paint thinner, lighter fluid etc. This affects the brain. Inhaling from the nose or mouth, you can cause permanent physical and mental damage. It kills the oxygen in the body. The heart beats irregularly and faster.
This can create:
• nausea
• nose bleeds
• liver, kidney and lung damage
Long term: Inhalants can make people unable to walk, talk and think normally. The brain tissue gets damaged from the toxic fumes being inhaled through the sinus.

Ecstasy is usually in a form of some kind of pill. It's a laboratory drug. So anything can be put in it like; caffeine, meth-amphetamine, ketamine (animal tranquilizer) and sometimes cocaine. It's in the family of hallucinogens and stimulants. Mixing this drug with alcohol is very dangerous and can kill you.
Can cause:
• more drug cravings-
• severe anxiety
• sleep problems
• fainting
• chills or sweating
• paranoia
• depression and confusion
This one can kill you even on your first try.

Cocaine comes in 2 forms, powder or Crack, also known as Rock Cocaine. Powder cocaine can be injested orally, snorted and can also be taken intravenously. When powder cocaine is made into rock cocaine, it is smoked. It is made from the coca plant and next to methamphetamine creates the biggest psychological dependence on any drug. Cocaine causes a short intense "high" and is followed by intense depression, edginess, and a craving for more. You will not eat and sleep well on this drug. You can feel paranoid, angry, hostile and anxious even if you aren't "high" at the time. You can have auditory hallucinations as well. This is a drug where more is needed to get the same "high" as before. This addiction is so intense you can murder to get more. The depression is so intense you are capable of suicide too.

Kiddie Cocaine (Ritalin)
This is a common name for methylphenidate classified as a Schedule II narcotic according to the Drug Enforcement Administration. It can cause nervousness, insomnia, heart racing. It can cause suicidal thoughts, psychotic behavior, aggressive or violent behavior. This is an update from the Food and Drug Administration from 2005.

Crystal Meth & Methamphetamines are inhaled, smoked or injected. Low doses can be in pill form. Crystal meth is a form that resembles small fragments of glass or shiny blue-white rocks. On the street it is called "ice" "crystal," "glass" etc. It is powerful and very addictive. It is manmade and causes aggression and violent or psychotic behavior.
This one only takes one time to be addicted.

Heroin is usually injected, snorted or smoked. It is highly addictive. Heroin enters the brain rapidly but makes you think and act slowly. This is serious. It is often linked to violence and crimes.
You can be cloudy, nauseous, vomit as you can feel no pain.

LSD is often in tablets, capsules or in liquid form. This is one of the most potent mood-changing synthetically made drugs and is chemically similar to the extremely poisonous ergot fungus which grows on rye and other grains. A tiny amount can cause 12 hours or more of its affects.
Can Cause:
• dilated pupils
• high body temperature
• sweating
• loss of appetite
• sleepiness
• dry mouth
• tremors
People have experienced terrifying thoughts and feelings and have a fear of insanity
Long term: You can get flashbacks, a repeated "trip" and psychosis

Oxycodone the powerful painkiller.
The more common and brand names for Oxycodone are OxyContin, Percocet and Percodan. It is a legal narcotic available with a prescription for the relief of severe pain. It is usually in pill form. In street use it is often crushed and snorted, chewed or mixed with water and injected eliminating the time release factor so people can have a quick and intense rush to the brain. It is as powerful as Heroin. It affects the nervous system as well.
Can cause:
• nausea
• constipation
• sedation
• dizziness
• vomiting
• headaches
• dry mouth
• weakness
• sweating
Long Term: People can increase their tolerance so that high dosages are taken for the initial effect. The drug is addictive and causes withdrawal symptoms if you try to stop.

PCP (phencyclidine) was developed in the 1950s as an intravenous anesthetic, but its use for humans was discontinued because it caused patients to become agitated, delusional, and irrational. Today individuals abuse PCP because of the mind-altering, hallucinogenic effects it produces.
PCP is a bitter-tasting, white crystalline powder that is easy to dissolve in water or alcohol. PCP may be dyed various colors and often is sold as a tablet, capsule, liquid, or powder.
What are the risks? PCP is an addictive drug; its use often results in psychological dependence, craving, and compulsive behavior. PCP produces unpleasant psychological effects, and users often become violent or suicidal. PCP poses particular risks for young people. Even moderate use of the drug can negatively affect the hormones associated with normal growth and development. PCP use also can impede the learning process in teenagers. High doses of PCP can cause seizures, coma, and even death (often as a consequence of accidental injury or suicide while under the drug's effects). At high doses, PCP's effects may resemble the symptoms associated with schizophrenia, including delusions and paranoia.
Long Term: Can lead to memory loss, difficulty with speech or thought, depression, and weight loss. These problems can persist for up to a year after an individual has stopped using PCP.

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EROWID.com is a vault to tell you anything about drugs
My book, "Invisible Warfare", Chapter 7 Fear (POW) Prisoner of My Inner War
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The Inevitable Dimension Travel Called-

Death, Suicide and Loss

In my belief system, death is not bad or wrong; it’s simply inevitable.

The only way for the spirit to travel to the next dimension
(whatever that may be) is to shed the body, which is too
heavy and slow to bring along.

When I was younger it disturbed me that some people died old, and
some died young. Eventually, I came to accept the idea that life is an experience, and that people who die have simply had their experience.

Therefore, life and death aren’t about age. The idea that an early death is some kind of punishment is an opinion, not a fact. If death isn’t bad, then the fact that someone dies young doesn’t mean that he or she or anyone else was bad. The spirit had its experience and moved on. A lot of so-called bad people live a long life. A lot of so-called good people do not.

The more we evolve, the less we want to go back in time, and the
less we want to be young again. Every age brings its own enlightenment and wisdom. When we understand our past, it’s easier to live in the moment and not fear the future.

If we live in the past or the future, we live in fear, in a trance, and miss the here and now. If we live in the past, we dwell on anger, guilt,shame or old egotistical successes or failures. People who avoid living truthfully aren’t living lovingly within themselves or with others. People in a trance or shut down/depressed are spiritually dormant. When we live fully in truth and understanding we have no regret, and don’t fear death. Ultimately, fear of death is simply regret about how we’re living now.

The suffering associated with loss is the losing of a part of ourselves. We can become lost inside and out. This is the harm or damage resulting in any kind of loss be it relationship, kids leaving home, moving or any other change requiring us to let go. This is what losing means. It is not just about others leaving but us leaving our true selves from an emotional take over.

In Yin Yang philosophy you need to know the opposite of something to know something. So to know death and understand it is the first step to learning how to live in present time.

You can die in any of the realms. The sooner you realize which part of you is dying the faster you can get relief.

There is….
Spiritual death
Mental death
Emotional death
Physical death
Sexual death
Financial death and.....
The Psyche/ Intuitive death

How much do feelings affect your life?

How many of you know how to process your feelings and understand emotional logic?

Loss and Death, Soul to Soul

Denial, Anger, Negotiations with Fate, Depression, and then Acceptance and Getting Yourself Back or coming back with wisdom and being even better.

The stage of denial is disbelief that a loss has happened. This can even go into a pretend or fantasy land. Get to the fear and anger stage and this will pass through.

Then comes the anger phase! The people left behind begin to question the fairness of the loss. (Get the Feeling Release Paper in my book Invisible Warfare Chapter 10 or go the forum page and print the Feeling Release Paper) There is a Physical Release explained in Chapter 10 that really helps you go through your body and out.

Now we negotiate right? This stage tries to make a deal with fate to gain more time with the one who passed or left the relationship.

Depression!!!!!!!!!!! Now we start to feel and fight how very sad and upset we are about the loss and change that is inevitable in our life.

When we rinse and go through our feelings, acceptance enters and we can start to move again. Other feelings and desires start to re-enter. Be careful of guilt here. You are not being disrespectful for moving on. The truth says this is where you are supposed to be and you still need to become the best you. If you have learned anything in this process it shall become wisdom and you will begin to walk as a more evolved person.

What about thoughts or actions of Suicide/ Self Murder?

Most suicidal thoughts are based on fears, hurts and non- understandings. There are often past experiences that you didn't know how to emotionally process and therefore could not be understood. This turns into a confusion spin and a self beat of why and how you should’ve been different and feeding the suicidal thoughts and feelings and unfortunately actions.

Depression is the suppression of your truths, feeling the lack of forgiveness of self or others, poor diet; high in sugar and fats, little or no exercise and throwing your chemicals out of balance.

Remember every feeling affects the chemicals in your brain and so does food.

Helpless/hopeless causes creative and emotional death. The creative mind is Spiritual and therefore its capabilities are infinite but you can't quit or give up.

The self beat judger telling you, you are worthless or not good enough can do it too. Check to see if the negative thoughts, feelings, and behaviors are a brainwashing from someone other than you. Every human being created has a purpose so the thought of worthlessness can’t be true, but it can be real because you believe it.

Belief is stronger than truth.

Subliminal pictures of sounds/voices from the past can take your mind over if you believe them, see them, and feel them. This is not a logical problem but an emotional and psychological one.

The loss of self and self love is detrimental for a deep and honoring life.

Suicidal feelings can be terrifying.

If you can no longer see why you should go on living, your distress will seem unbearable. You may hate yourself and believe that you are useless and unneeded. You may feel rage, shame, and guilt.

Repeated painful experiences, particularly losses, can lead you to blame yourself and feel that you haven't lived up to your own standards. Unbearable situations, unsolvable problems, failures or conflicts, you may start to think that death is your only option.

It can be difficult to relate to others at this time, so you are likely to withdraw or be irritable. Even if you have family and friends around, it may seem impossible to tell them how much you need help in a helpless/ hopeless state.

If someone has hurt you badly, you may be thinking of suicide as a way of getting back at them. It is understandable to be angry with people who have hurt us, but suicide turns that anger in on ourselves.

You may not be sleeping well and waking up early, and your appetite might have changed so that you are losing weight or gaining it. You may feel cut off from your body or physically numb. Perhaps you have stopped taking care of yourself and are neglecting your mental and physical appearance. Overall, you are probably feeling like you have no energy.

If you hear voices, they may be urging you to kill yourself and you may feel worn down by the effort of resisting them. If you have just come out of a busy or really happy time, you may feel guilty too.

Mixed feelings

You may be harming yourself by cutting, biting or burning your body. Perhaps you are getting into fights or taking extreme risks. You may also be overdosing on drugs, bingeing on alcohol or have developed anorexia or bulimia. However, this kind of self-harming behavior rarely involves actually wanting to kill yourself. It is more usually a means of trying to stay alive. You may not know why you are self-harming, but it is often a way of communicating deep distress and trying to cope better.

For most people, suicidal thoughts are confusing. As much as you want to die, you may also want a solution to your upsets. There is great anxiety about having such mixed feelings and being unsure what to do. This is why suicidal thoughts can be frightening and confusing.

Can you treat suicidal voices as messengers and write them out and try to figure out the hidden message like a puzzle and know or have faith that this a is a moment and a lesson for you to grow and become deeper?

Although thinking about suicide is quite common, and may occur whatever your age, gender, or sexuality, you will be more vulnerable to suicidal thoughts and feelings if you feel incapable of solving the difficulties in your life. These may include:

• isolation or loneliness
• the breakdown of an important relationship
• being bullied at work, home or at school
• experiencing bereavement or other loss
• failure at work or education
• adjusting to a big change, such as retirement,
redundancy or your children leaving home
• debt problems
• being in prison
• pregnancy, childbirth or postnatal depression
• cultural pressures
• long-term physical pain or illness
• doubts about your sexual identity
• facing discrimination
• a history of sexual or physical abuse.

How do I get help?

SUICIDE PREVENTION & CRISIS HOTLINES

# 1-800-SUICIDE (#1-800-784-2433)

# 1-800-273-TALK (#1-800-273-8255) –Grief

Step 1
Allow yourself to go through your feelings about the death. Normal and predictable feelings you may have, include shock, anger, denial, depression, and anxiety.


Step 2
Let go of any self-blame you may have. Beating yourself up is taking too much responsibility for someone else's actions.

Step 3
Get help by joining a support group for survivors of suicide or talking to a psychotherapist.

Step 4
Nurture yourself. Give yourself plenty of time and space to relax, take it easy, and do whatever helps you feel better, such as taking walks, baths or naps; drinking tea; listening to music; reading.

Step 5
Take any pressure or expectations off yourself to "get over it" quickly. Grief can last from weeks to months or longer.

Step 6
Talk to your doctor about possibly taking medicine if you're having trouble sleeping or are experiencing anxiety or depression, or discuss the options of herbal supplements such as St. John's Wort (for depression) or kava kava (for anxiety) with your health care provider.

This is writing from one of our listeners regarding this

weeks show-

I remember when I felt petrified about death and suicide, as a little girl I remember crawling into my Mom's side of the bed, in the middle of the night, because I could not stop thinking about death. "What happens, does everything go dark and then I'll never see you again?" I couldn't grasp the thought of never seeing my family again, never being me, never existing. She always told me to have faith.

I remember, while I was driving one day, a truck moving in the opposite direction and I thought, "What if that truck just veered into my lane?"

For the seconds it took the truck to pass I wanted it to be over, my life. I would settle for the complete darkness to get rid of these overwhelming feelings. I wanted freedom from the suffocation of my own mind.

I can understand why some people take their own lives. Why people at the end of their life are okay to go. Life gets hard and painful. I was scared and numb, and a little relieved when the truck past. I tried to think of people who were suffering more than myself, which made me feel a bit absurd.

I wished for the faith my mother told me to have or something to stop the pain.

I don't understand why when I work so hard at realizing how wonderful life is, because I truly do, knowing that I am very blessed with health, family, friends, and much more. I know the power of positive thought and all that, why then do I have a battle with myself some days.

How do I stop the sadness when that is more engrained in me then being happy?

The song Soul to Soul played at the end of this program is from Mona’s album Something I’ve Gotta Trust. Soul To Soul